{"id":665,"date":"2008-09-27T04:58:00","date_gmt":"2008-09-27T04:58:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/?p=665"},"modified":"2014-10-01T03:47:28","modified_gmt":"2014-10-01T03:47:28","slug":"legacies","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/?p=665","title":{"rendered":"Legacies"},"content":{"rendered":"

I can not:
sew
cook
decorate
match shoes to bag
make small talk
say goodbye
show interest
at baby showers<\/p>\n

I can not stop:
looking back
pushing away
keeping secrets
being late
trying too hard
pretending
it doesn’t matter<\/p>\n

I can:
laugh in spite of myself
(most often at myself)
wonder
be honest
be happy
be vulnerable
see love and loss
without fear<\/p>\n

– – – – – – – – – – –<\/p>\n

There are days when I feel like I’m writing the same blog post, over and over, but with different words. And I wonder if you all notice?<\/p>\n

\ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n

(Blogging as free therapy)<\/p>\n

There’s some tangential relationship here to <\/span>this post<\/span><\/a>, I think.<\/p>\n

What has me thinking about my mom tonight, some thirty years later, I’m not sure. Probably it has to do with this lady I work with; there’s something about her and the way she carries herself in the hallway at the office. There’s times when I catch sight of her; really, it’s the sound of her shoes that reminds me of my mother – something inexplicable and familiar.<\/p>\n

Weird.
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I can not:sewcookdecoratematch shoes to bagmake small talksay goodbyeshow interestat baby showers I can not stop:looking backpushing awaykeeping secretsbeing latetrying too hardpretendingit doesn’t matter I can:laugh in spite of myself(most often at myself)wonderbe honestbe happybe vulnerablesee love and losswithout fear – – – – – – – – – – – There are days when … Continue reading Legacies<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,9,20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/665"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=665"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/665\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=665"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=665"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.somewhereinnj.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=665"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}